Before I begin, I want to ask y’all, specifically my one guy
reader ( +Trey Freeman ) if y’all would read a football piece I blog about?
#Humblebrag I want to point out that I got this week’s BCS top 5 in order,
exactly right. 1) Alabama 2) Florida State 3) Ohio State 4) Stanford 5) Baylor
… before it was announced. Holt and I make predictions every Sunday. I have
knowledge, you want it? Comment below if you want this girl’s college football
knowledge J
Anyways, back to today’s topic. DREAMS. Not analyzing your
nightly dreams (mine are far too weird to disclose), but your life dream. Not
things you want to accomplish or wacky bucket list activities, which I am all
for, but your one dream of your life and how it will/would/could/should be. I
know we all imagine when we are younger what our future will look like, but
when you are at the point or past the point of when YOU think things should
already be in place, what do you do? I, personally, feel like I am past the
point for my life dream. Feeling this way, yet still wanting it beyond words
gives me the sense that I’m drowning and makes me want to give up, not on life
(don’t be too alarmed).
Some would say there are no expiration dates on dreams, but
in today’s society pressure of having certain things (marriage, babies, dream
job, etc.) by a certain time leads us to settle. This is not to take away from
the people that are beyond happy in their lives, careers, marriages, and
families. I only wish to experience their true happiness someday. But I
definitely believe that more people have settled than have gone for their
dreams, 100%.
My question to everyone that has the feeling that they’ve
settled, is WHY did you? Unless, your current status in life is part of your
big picture dream, then WHY are you doing what you are doing? WHY aren’t you
working toward your goal? Whether it be saving money or constantly checking up
for open position in your dream job or making sure you and your significant
other are on the same page in the pace of your relationship. I don’t know
everyone’s dream. When I say this I’m talking about THE dream. However you
picture your life as truly happy. Whether it is with a husband/wife and kids.
No kids. Or Han SOLO forevverrr. Living where you’ve always dreamed. Doing what
you love. One collective big dream.
I’m on the verge of settling and it makes me sick. I DON’T
want to settle and I don’t support my own decision, if that is the way the
cookie ends up crumbling. I want to have not only God’s support and guidance
for my future endeavors, but the support of the ones I love. As a Christian, I
am here on this earth to fulfill God’s purpose and that is my ultimate dream,
but I pray that he can guide me through my life dream on how to serve where I
can be a blessing and fulfill his purpose. My
dream to live and work in Europe and to fall deeply, madly in love anywhere in
this world has not changed, and isn’t that far fetched. The only thing
holding me back is dolla dolla bills yo. Well, and experience. India only
proved to me that though I’m scared to travel, through prayer and support, I
can do anything. I will be back, I hope, if I haven’t settled.
I think I’d rather have failed attempts than regret not
trying for the rest of my life. If I can get over the fact of my age (yes for
me that is a factor, for some people it is not) and where I am currently in my
life, then I will keep on after my dream, THE DREAM. Here’s to the lives we’ve
always wanted to live, that we don’t give up until our goal is achieved, and
that our focus IS what will truly make us happy. NEVER settle.
WHAT IS YOUR DREAM?
xoxo,
B
